ANOREXIA
[x] you have dry skin
[/] you eat 1 meal
[x] you're very weak
[x] you hate yourself
[\] you starve yourself
[x] you have low self esteem
[ ] you use laxatives
[x] you need to be more skinny
[x] people always say you're skinny, but you think you're fat
[/] people think you are too skinny
Total: 7.5 out of 10

ADHD (ATTENTION DEFICIT/HYPERACTIVITY DISORDER)
[x] your mind is all over the place
[x] you are hyper most of the time
[x] you barely pay attention to anything
[x] you can't cooperate well
[x] you talk all the time
[x] you need attention 24/7
Total: 6 out of 6

BIPOLAR DISORDER
[x] you can act wild at times then the next day you are depressed.
[x] you are very irritable
[x] you are antisocial
[ ] you have very high self esteem sometimes
[ ] you are abusing alcohol, drugs, or sex
[x] you have thought of/attempted suicide
Total: 4 out of 6

BULIMIA NERVOSA
[ ] you throw up all of your food.
[ ] you throw it up even when you don't feel sick.
[x] you have no control over how you eat.
[ ] you use laxatives.
[x] you have overly exercised to where you almost fainted/passed out.
[x] you always say you are fat, when you aren't.
[/] people think you're way too skinny
Total: 3.5 out of 7

CONDUCT DISORDER
[ ] you are a bully.
[ ] you threaten other people.
[ ] you often find yourself in fights.
[ ] you have used a weapon that could cause injury to others.
[ ] you are cruel to humans and/or animals.
[ ] you have raped/molested someone. (I hate them.)
[ ] you destroy property on purpose
[ ] you always lie.
[ ] you stay out all night.
[ ] you have ran away from home.
Total: 0 out of 10

DEPRESSION
[x] You are always sad.
[x] You find no hope in your future.
[x] You find no longer excitement over the activities you used to love.
[x] you always find yourself in bed/around the house all day.
[x] You have low self esteem.
[x] everything bad happens is always your fault
[x] you always seem to be weak or have physical features hurt.
[/] You are failing school.
[x] You have thought of/attempted suicide.
[ ] you have ran away from home.
[x] Hope is no longer there for you.
Total: 9.5 out of 11

OCD (OBSESSIVE COMPULSIVE DISORDER)
[x] You have daily rituals.
[x] you have disturbing thoughts or thoughts you hate.
[x] you have to do a certain thing until it feels right.
[x] you have to keep things in a certain order.
[x] you have harmed yourself.
[ ] you are afraid you will get any kind of germs.
[x] you have to check some stuff over again
Total: 6 out of 7

PTSD (POST-TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER)
[ ] you repeatedly have flashbacks of horrible moments/memories in your life.
[x] you repeatedly have dreams of horrible moments/memories in your life.
[ ] you sometimes think the event will happen again.
[x] you can be/are anti-social.
[x] you have lost interest in the things you used to love.
[x] You have not had a lot of sleep lately
[ ] you worry about dying at a early age or dying at all.
[ ] you can have angry outbursts.
[/] You act younger than your age.
Total: 4.5 out of 9

SCHIZOPHRENIA
[ ] you often have hallucinations
[x] you have strange, unusual dreams or thoughts.
[x] you can be confused about reality and fantasy.
[x] you think people are always staring or talking about you.
[x] you have extreme anxiety or fearfulness.
[x] you have difficulty with relationships with family, friends, and opposite sex.
[x] you do not take care of your hygiene like you should.
[x] you are very shy.
[x] you often talk to yourself.
Total: 8 out of 9



Well haha apparently I have /issues/.
Obviously these are not accurate tests BUT STILLLL. xD

Anyway, so today was better. I can talk about it now, they've released everything to the press.

So I've told you a bit about Tammy. Not much, but a bit.
She's my best friend/adopted sister/favourite person haha. I love her.

She's 25 or so. She's facing her third round of cancer. It's potentially terminal. Anyway, right now she's in the hospital, and they're treating an absess which might be her throat cancer showing up in another area. Her father dropped her off at the hospital, and kept her cell phone, promising to call her often. (He was visiting from Nova Scotia to take care of her during this difficult time in her life.) He drove back to her apartment (in a rental car), where he was staying. Two days later, she still had not heard from him. Her phone was off. She was especially worried because she had called her apartment two days earlier at about 1:30 in the morning and her BROTHER had answered. (You should know that her brother is a drug addicted homeless man whose life has totally fallen apart. In the past few months he has been divorced, been kicked out onto the streets, continued to struggle with his addictions, attempted suicide more than once, etc. He'd been staying with Tammy occassionally, but he is very manipulative, etc.) Anyway, she called my mom (her surrogate mom). My mom called in a missing person's report to the police. The next morning, early, we heard back. The police had gone to the apartment and found her father, dead. He died from blunt force trauma to the head. We are certain it was Jason (Tammy's brother. In fact, the victim's son.) Jason has been arrested. He is in custody, being charged with second degree murder.

So the entire family is in chaos. Tammy's mom flew down from Nova Scotia, and she is constantly being visited in the hospital, and her support group is totally there for her. We are hugging her and on sunday I'm going over to paint her toes. She's being so strong, she's wonderful.

Anyway, if you could think good thoughts for Tammy, or pray for her if you're religious, we'd appreciate it a lot. She's having a really tough time, as are we all.

Thanks guys!

But anyway tomorrow I get to go to Canada's Wonderland and today I got to hang out with Tammy and go to the Women's Conference which is always fun, so I'm doing pretty well right now.

This entry is ridiculously long so I'm going to go.
Love you all!
Peace,
Kinn.